It's been just about a month since You left and the time has both sped past and dragged on. I still miss You every night when I go to sleep and sometimes lay awake for a long time trying to feel comfortable in our bed. I imagine I can still smell You on your pillow, even though the scent is gone now.
Even though I'm missing You, I'm still trying to do things, keep busy, have fun. It's my nature to hide away and lick my wounds in private, but I know that's not what You want. And once I get out, I am enjoying myself, I promise!
I'm working on myself too--both my health and my self-confidence. Not skipping the doctor and ignoring things. Taking lots of pictures, but You know that ;) Buying things that make me feel fun and sassy and sexy. Don't worry, You'll reap the benefits when You get home!
So... one month down. 5 to go. I was scared at first, but I can do this. Not because it's easy, because it sure as hell isn't, but because it's worth it. You're worth it. We're worth it.
I love You.
Your babygirl and loving wife