Lazy Little Girl

So, Daddy left again yesterday and I'm home working on picking up the pieces. I don't want to. I sorta just want to sit and wallow for a couple days. But...I have 3 small people depending on me, so even though I just want to curl up with a fluffy blanket and a pint of Ben & Jerry's and miss Him for a while, I can't.

Besides updating here, one other thing that sort of fell by the wayside was my diet and exercise. I hadn't worked out in about a month as of yesterday. I had excuse after excuse for it. It was hard to deal with working out, I couldn't get a sitter, they interrupted me when I tried to work out, etc. The real reason? I'm a lazy, lazy little brat. I hate working out. My general attitude is "I don't wanna", though I will admit that once I am actually working out, it is more than worth it. I've been thinking a lot about improving myself, making a better me, so to speak. Honestly, I feel that is one of the best ways I can show my love for Him, by being the best that I can. So, even though I didn't want to, even though I still had a laundry list of excuses, after He left yesterday, I did all the mommy stuff, waited for the kids to be in bed, and did an exercise video. Then I slept like a baby, curled up on His side of the bed, in His blanket. So...I felt even less like exercise today, but I put on a short workout and did that. Don't they say it takes 3 weeks to form a habit? So...2 days down, 19 more to go before this stops feeling like a chore, right? Lol.

I miss You, Daddy. I love You.

No News is...

Good news! I haven't been updating because my Daddy is HOME! It was unexpected & we're not sure how long-medical stuff but not super bad-but I will take what I can get! Wheeee!

A Letter to Daddy

Dear Daddy, 

It's been just about a month since You left and the time has both sped past and dragged on. I still miss You every night when I go to sleep and sometimes lay awake for a long time trying to feel comfortable in our bed. I imagine I can still smell You on your pillow, even though the scent is gone now.

Even though I'm missing You, I'm still trying to do things, keep busy, have fun. It's my nature to hide away and lick my wounds in private, but I know that's not what You want. And once I get out, I am enjoying myself, I promise! 

I'm working on myself too--both my health and my self-confidence. Not skipping the doctor and ignoring things. Taking lots of pictures, but You know that ;) Buying things that make me feel fun and sassy and sexy. Don't worry, You'll reap the benefits when You get home!

So... one month down. 5 to go. I was scared at first, but I can do this. Not because it's easy, because it sure as hell isn't, but because it's worth it. You're worth it. We're worth it.

I love You.

Love,

Your babygirl and loving wife

Challenge #2

So...what does every good little girl who's having to go without her Daddy to tuck her in at night NEED? A cozy, colorful blanket to snuggle up in, of course!

I've been trying to figure out how to mark the time He's been gone & how soon He'll come back in a physical way (all of our calendars are online, lol), and it hit me tonight: an afghan! I will do my best to work on it a little every week & hopefully by the time He gets home it will be big enough to cover our bed. I am also using up my scrap yarn & a bunch of my yarn stash, which should make Him a very happy Daddy. I may have a wee bit of a yarn hoarding issue...

So, this is what has been done so far of my Crazy, Colorful, Scrap Deployment Afghan:

My Commentary on Mornings...

Yeah, that's about it. I don't think many words are needed in this case--3 pictures = a 3000 word count, right, Daddy? *grumbles*

Trying to be a littler little...

So...I've said that I'm a little, but what I haven't said is that I'm also trying to BECOME little...well, littler in size at least. I had gained a lot of weight with my last baby and I'm sort of working on having the outside finally matching the inside. As an aside, a tummy tuck--which is also needed to repair my abdominal muscles--and a breast reduction would do a lot towards that aim as well! Ah well. I'm very lucky because I have a Daddy who loves me and thinks I'm perfect even when I'm bigger, but it also means that He is not the best at encouraging me in my weight loss journey lol. He doesn't want me to feel pushed, so He doesn't say much with regard to it, and He definitely doesn't kick my ass and make me go workout, so I have to do that myself. I'm not always successful.

However, what is the best way to encourage a little girl to do something that she SHOULD do but doesn't want to? Rewards! (And my first thought was STICKERS--so I am SO making myself a sticker chart, omgz!) For hitting 190 pounds, my reward was new bras, and 1 matching bra and panty set, yay!

Daddy also says there needs to be more naughty pictures, so I am working on that one next...

Damn right, I'm a princess!

So, like... took the kids for haircuts today, and ended up going too late to really go home and cook. I won't eat McDonald's anymore--gave it up last week, but hey, it counts!--so I got them happy meals and I'm going to forage once they go to bed. However, I was delighted to find a tiara in the baby's happy meal. Yay! She's not going to miss it, right? *grins*

Damn right, I'm a motherfucking princess!

Also, I'm all a-squee over my new socks. I love socks. I feel especially girly in knee- and thigh-highs. When you're over say...12 years old, they get harder to find, though still possible. When you're over a SIZE 12, it gets nigh impossible. I found the awesomest, most superfantabulous store the other day and ordered some new socks. I meant to just order 2 pairs, but there was a glitch with the cart and well, I now have FOUR pairs hehe. I took pictures of 3 before I got interrupted in my glee to go be a grownup.